What To Do When The Magic is Gone

Hello my witchlings! It’s been a long LONG time since I last posted. At least several months. I’m sure you’re wondering where I’ve been–and maybe you haven’t because life moves on and months away on the internet is tantamount to years, I know!

I could tell you I’ve been off on a spiritual journey, taking classes on karma and meditation and becoming a 3rd degree Wiccan.

But I wasn’t.

To be honest, a lot of crazy (mostly good, some not as great) things have happened. In my mundane life a book of mine got picked up and published, and I started writing even more books. It was awesome. But what ended up happening was that magic had to take a back seat. And more than that, I woke up one day and realized I felt super disconnected with the flow of the universe and the mysterious. It was just….dormant. Not gone, but asleep. Faraway.

I wasn’t too worried about it at first. All witches have times like that. Days or weeks where they just don’t have the drive or feel the connection. But then those days and weeks turned into a month, and then two and then three…..and I began to worry. Why couldn’t I connect? Why was the ‘spark’ gone? Waking up and being excited to do a mediation or do a magical project? Hell, I even felt incredibly disconnected from celebrating Full Moons and big holidays like Beltane (one of my favorite holidays!).

I felt awful. I still ran a ritual with friends for Litha, but the power, the feeling of connectedness…it just wasn’t there. I was in a forest and I’d lost my way.

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Honestly, I’m still feeling that way. But it’s less. I’m feeling a bit more of the spark coming back. An ember, but at least a hot ember that will hopefully turn into a merry fire again.

So here’s the thing though: You can’t force magic. You can’t force your feelings. And your spiritual practice (no matter what path it is) shouldn’t feel like a chore. It shouldn’t be ‘something you have to do. UGH.” If you’re feeling that way STEP AWAY.

Allow yourself to feel that way. Try not to feel guilty (I say try because I know how hard it is to NOT feeling guilty!). Sometimes you need the break. That’s okay. Just like the seasons, just like the moon, there is waxing and waning. A season for all things. And sometimes that change means spirituality takes a back seat.

Sometimes the mundane life has to (and does) take precedence. I’m not saying your practice and beliefs aren’t as important, but getting bills paid, chasing your dream, making things happen….sometimes that needs to come first. Spirit isn’t going to get mad at you smite you with lightening. They’re not there for that. They’re there to help you.

That’s been a hard lesson for me to learn–especially since it’s been so many months. But I don’t want my beliefs to feel like a chore, and for the past few months they’ve felt that way, and I admit it.

But thankfully I think the cloud is starting to lift, becoming more overcast than thick mist, and I think I’ll soon find my way through the forest.

How about you guys? Do you find yourself ever disconnected with your practice for months at a time? Do you feel guilty? How do you get back into the groove? Or does it just come back in one blinding instant? This witch wants to know!

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Tuesday Intent: Hunting and Courage

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Last night in a dream I had to face one of the most stressful fears in my life (at the moment). It’s something that’s inevitable in my life and something that causes me a lot of fear. In my dream I literally screamed and raged and did everything I could to not let it happen. And it still did. I woke up with a pounding heart and a pounding heart.

I had decided that I was going to focus on Hunting today for my intent, but the gods had other ideas. I lit my candle and incense and took a deep breath. I cast out my intent for Hunting and the gods quickly butted in and said, “remember courage.” I couldn’t concentrate well until I did! So I amended it and added courage.

You may wonder why on earth I would choose hunting! I certainly don’t kill animals nor enjoy it. But it wasn’t the actual hunting I focused on. I focused on what it takes to hunt. High levels of focus, concentration, being at one with the environment, patience. It takes all these things and more to be a good hunter. You need to know yourself, know your weapon, the animal you wish to hunt.

And of course, courage.

You can’t hunt without courage. So I focused my intent for the day. To have the courage to hunt after my goals, to keep my eyes on it like a hunter on a deer and not let myself get distracted by things around me. To breath. To have the courage to loosen my bow. Or in this case, to focus on my writing and aim for publication despite my fears of how it’ll turn out. To not let the fear of the inevitability in my life distract me. But to also face it. To not shirk from it. Like when an animal realizes your there and stares you dead in the eye.

Do you have the courage to face it and still loosen your bow?

So today I hope you can all have a little of qualities of a Hunt can bring. Will you focus on your goals and not let things distract you from them? To quiet the world around you and focus intently? Will you have the courage to even go for your goal, or face up to your fears so that you can start the hunt to begin? I hope you do! Heck, I hope I do!

Blessed be everyone!

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The Creative Witch

Forgive the *counts* Oops. Two weeks of non writing. My bad! Life last week was just one big gogogogogoooo week. In four days I got 6 hours of sleep. So uh. There was that. And then this week was one big whirl-wind of life and some interesting surprises!

I’m an artist by trade, and something that I’m creating that was supposed to be fun and small and unpretentious has suddenly turned into a production. And I’m not even joking about that! My little ‘idea’ was so well received that people with far more skill and technical abilities than myself stepped forward and have sort of semi-taken it over. Where once I would be filming with a camera is now being replaced by a professional. And now there will be a set. A SET. So. Yes.

This is what I get for having very talented art friends in high places. Who’d of thunk it?! But I’m grateful for it! I’m grateful that my idea has spawned ideas for other creatives and inspired them to do art!…..I just hope it doesn’t get much more over blown than it has, because I’m by no means an actor!

So that’s why this week I’ve been busy. But you know what? I should have seen it coming. I realize now that all of the meditating and focusing on creative-ness would have opened the cosmos up to me and poured into it creativity. I’m so thankful for it universe! I hope you never stop! Because all this art and being surrounded by artists is really amazing!

I do believe an offering of thanks is due! I know what I’m going to do tomorrow!

I hope all of you have been given some sort of opening in the universe as well! I hope that any blocks you’ve had are released so that you can make way for new and better things in your life!

Blessed Be!

The Goddess’s Lullaby

I wrote this a few years ago, inspired by a gray day and resting my feet in a creek. I was lucky enough to have brought paper and pen, and I’m pretty sure the little pixies of the woods helped out! I hope you enjoy this poem as much as I had fun writing it! Happy Friday!

If you wish to put the poem on your website, that’s just fine! Just please link it back to here. Thanks so much!

THE GODDESS’S LULLABY

Within me dwells the earth and sky

The knowing winds and mountains high.

Behind my eyes are the stars and moon

My love for all glows back at you.

The veins flow with the rivers and lakes

My hair the pattern tangled branches make.

The heart it makes the ocean tides

and causes mountains to collide.

Within me dwells the dusky sky

The restless winds your lullaby

And gentle ponds your pillow will be

My arms the dark soil that covers thee.

And here and there a star will fall

to paint a picture on your wall

And tell you stories of long ago

When the world was young and

the universe old.

Getting Rid of Anger (The Pagan Way!)

We all have a person (or persons) that knows exactly how to push our buttons. You know, the one that makes you go zero to sixty on the ‘I’ve-turned-into-a-person-scarier-than-a-mega-volcano’ scale. And as we sit in our now destroyed rooms breathing fire and brimstone like Pele on a rampage, we think to ourselves ‘why do I let this person get to me!?’

It’s a good question that you really should look at. Why DO you let this person get to you? Anger is one of the emotions we use more than anything else. People (witches included!) even use it to relate to others, like being angry at a movie plot, or talking about a rude comment you both overheard someone make. The point is, often times we let anger be our driving force, or help keep it going by saying negative comments about a person or situation.

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 As a pagan we are taught to release anger when a person makes a snide comment about you, but often times it involves meditations, or spells, or groundings, and things that don’t seem very conductive to douse the fires of anger right away. Holding a rock in your hand to take in your anger just doesn’t seem to do it either (in fact, you probably crushed that rock to smithereens). So how do you get rid of your anger effectively? I come to you with three simple words to combat your anger:

Love and Light

That’s it. Those three words will save you time and energy. I, for instance, was angry that someone tried to drag me into a situation that wasn’t my own, I didn’t know what to do with myself or my misplaced anger. So after a pep talk from friends I went and sat and mediated on the anger. I didn’t WANT to be angry. I didn’t even want to be mad. And three words fell into my lap. Love and Light.

The moment I said it I felt a calmness come over me. I said it again and again. And the more I said it, the more at peace I felt. It helped me put things immediately into perspective. Why spend time being angry, when I could be spending it loving things and sending light out into the world? Anger is nasty, it makes other people angry, and I’m sure you’ve all been in a tense and uncomfortable room where two people are obviously seething with rage at each other. Not a fun place to be is it?

But say it out loud. Or in your head. Love and Light. For me, it helped me realize that when I say those words and MEAN them, I’m doing more good in the world than the people raging and casting around bitterness and anger. And those people who say or do awful things are doing it because they’re hurt or in pain. Or maybe they were even told horrible things about themselves by people like their family. The point is, they’re hurt. And rather than turning it around and making something positive (or perhaps don’t know how to), they allow the hurt, anger, fear, or whatever else they have going on to take control of them instead.

So the next time someone makes you mad, pushes your button, or lashes out, just say to yourself (Or maybe even to them, in a serene and now much calmer voice):

Love And Light

This may not be the way for every one, and I don’t claim it is, but I encourage you to say the words out loud and really think about their meaning, because you might find that its exactly what you needed to say. Blessed Be everyone!

Are You Pagan, Wiccan, Or……?

We’ve all heard it, or at least been asked it, whether by other pagans or by individuals.

Are you Pagan or Wiccan?”

Now if you’re new to this, these words might be confusing. Aren’t they the same thing? You ask yourself. In fact, your pretty sure that there ISN’T a difference. This assumption might or might not annoy more ‘seasoned’ witches—who having made the exact same mistake as you when they were younger—and cause them to give you a long list of the differences. And it won’t be just about being Pagan or Wiccan, they might even delve into the more complex system that is the make up of the term ‘Pagan’. Words like Asatru, Dianic, Druid, and Hedge Witch will also come into play. Woah. You say. Woah, woah WOAH. How can there be so many!? What the heck is the difference!?

Let me make this as easy a transition as possible for you. “Pagan”  is derived from the noun ‘paganus’, which means country dweller, and is an umbrella term that clumps together all who are non Judeo-Christian (this includes Buddhists, Taoists, and even Shinto). Under this umbrella are people who might follow traditions/religions from their heritage (like the Irish or Greek),  things they feel more compelled to (like Egyptian or even Babylonian), or simply believe in a ‘great all’ and worship the earth and the elementals within them instead. At the bottom of this page I will give you some definitions to the other traditions. Needless to say, if someone says “I’m Pagan” That could mean anything from ‘I don’t believe in any one god/goddess, just elementals’, to a specific tradition “I’m Asatru!”.

Now, Wicca. It derives from the term “wicce”, a Norse word meaning “wise one”. Wicca is a bit more structured, with levels and degrees. In fact, to be considered a ‘true wiccan’ you must be initiated by a high priestess who in turn, had been initiated by a high priestess, and so forth (traditionally, it must be a priestess, not a priest.) There are also those who are solitary practitioners who dedicate themselves. There is a lot of controversy surrounding this, and I’m not here to get into that. Those who are wiccan have a clear belief in either both the goddess and god, or simply the goddess, and celebrate the Sabbats and Esbats. (Note: while both pagans—of the European descent—and wiccans celebrate the same wheel of the year, they might do it different ways. For instance, ‘pagans’ might simply give water and their first harvest of fruit/veggies/grains to the earth/gods, wiccans will do a ritual and create a sacred space, honoring the god and goddess and phase of life they’re in at that moment)

I hope this has cleared some things up for you, and believe me, I know the lines can be very blurry sometimes. For instance, for a very long time I used the terms ‘pagan’ and ‘wiccan’ interchangeably when I first started out, but as the years went by I realized there WAS a difference. Wicca is very structured, methodical, and highly secretive when it comes to what you’ve learned through your mentor. It’s not for everyone. ‘Paganism’ is where I more or less found myself leaning, because I could create my own rituals and place an alter the way I wanted to place it (yes, there IS a correct way to set an alter, I’m sure you’ve seen them in beginners books), and because my way of worshiping the gods was a bit different than the Wiccan’s set traditional rites.

Hopefully somewhere in these words you’ve found some sense of peace, so that when the next time you meet someone and they ask you what you are you can proudly say “I’m _____.” If you’re at a point in your life where you’re still learning, or are still trying to find a tradition that calls to you, I’ve made a list of some traditions you might want to look up. There is of course, Egyptian gods and magic, Santeria (which comes from Mexican traditions), and you might want to take a look into the Order of the Golden Dawn, which I BELIEVE was created during the Victorian era.

Now for a list of some of the traditions in the ‘Pagan Umbrella’

Asatru: This is the practice and traditions of the Norse. Odin, Freya, etc.

Dianic: Greek/Roman. This is the tradition that is almost strictly goddess only. The god is either non-existent or plays a very minor role.

Druid: (or more likely, ‘Neo-Druid’, as druidism was an oral tradition, and most of it was lost when Christianity came along) The practice of the old ways of Irish, English, and Scottish rituals and beliefs.

Hedge Witch: A witch who might or might not worship a god/goddess. More earth based in nature. They might be recognized for working with earth such as gardening, healing, divinations, and even craft making. They can also be a Kitchen Witch (one who practices magic with food. Very often they grow their own garden, and so could have both titles)

Gardenerian: The man who brought forth Wicca from a secreted Coven in England.  

Stregha: Italian witchcraft. You may hear people of this tradition mention Aradia. She is not a goddess, she is a woman who preached the old ways to the people of Italy and formed covens.   

Here are two links that I found super helpful and informative, if you want to read them.

On Wiccan: http://blessedbe.sugarbane.com/wicca.htm

On Stregha: http://www.paganlibrary.com/reference/on_hereditary_italian_witchcraft.php

Love Spells The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

Love, as described in the dictionary is a noun meaning “A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.”

It is a feeling most people know well. The thrill, the rush. How your heart beats faster just hearing his/her name from someone else’s lips. The memory of them handing you your pencil and saying “you dropped this.” Was there ever a poem written more beautifully than those words!? Love in all forms is beautiful, whether from a significant other or a lick from your dog/cat. It has been recorded in history books throughout, and plays, that love is the greatest attainment. That it has the power to change the world (And it does, look at Napoleon and Josephine.), and topple mountains. Is it any wonder that hand in hand with this belief, came love spells?

Love spells have been around since humans have been able to make things. Even the ancients of Babylon and India had guaranteed potions and foods for you! Now, I know that many pagans (may I even say Wiccans?) out there who might be new, or hey, even old hats, have heard and read things that seem to contradict. “And it harm none, do what ye will” sayeth the rede. And that means not taking advantage of some ones free will. Yet book after book (especially for teens) has a portion of love spells in them. There are even whole books dedicated to the 1001 spells/potions to get a man/woman. Some pagans will tell you to NEVER EVER EVER DO LOVE SPELLS, as it is a dark practice, while others encourage it.

Is there a right way? A wrong way? Well…yes. Now, before I get attacked and thrown to very hungry sharks, let me explain. Many people ask “Well, can I MAKE someone love me? Because this spell here says I can.” Honestly? Yes. I’ve seen it done by a girl in the coven I was once in. The consequences were terrible, and she paid a VERY high price. She DID in fact, force another friend’s boyfriend to love her. It lasted only a few hours, but the damage was done. The boy had gone to his then girlfriend (my friend), crying and saying he didn’t know what had overcome him. They broke up, and the girl was banished from the coven, all ties broken. To this day, she has been unable to keep a loving relationship. This, dear readers, is what comes from forcing someone to love you.

There is power behind everything you do and say. Forcing someone to do something that is against their nature will only hurt you in ways that you can’t even begin to comprehend. So is there a way to get Sally/Sam to like you without forcing them? Why yes there is! Love spells do not necessarily need to be about FORCING the person to love you. You can do spells that make you appear more attractive/interesting to the opposite sex (its all there, you just haven’t shined yet!), or spells that might give you the courage to express your feelings to the person.  In fact, sometimes just wearing an oil made for attracting love to you along with focus can do it (no chant needed!) However, it is NEVER a good idea to force them. If they don’t notice you after the spell has been done (with intent and harm to none), then it wasn’t meant to be. You can also do spells that bring a PERSON you would like to date.

That doesn’t mean you bring a specific person to you. For instance, you don’t ask the gods to give you ‘Brian’. You ask for traits that you would like your prospective partner to have. One of THE most effect spells (and the simplest) is one that I have used on more than one occasion during my time being pagan, and I have had the results within half an of performing the spell (Any spells/recipies/oils I give you, I HAVE made/tried.).

I believe love is at its most powerful when it is least expected. That’s what makes love so wonderful! But waiting around and hoping it’ll come certainly never helped any one! If you are ready for a relationship, or want to just get out there in the dating scene, this spell will work for you faster than you can say “gummi bear!” There is no need to call quarters, but I would suggest casting a circle to keep out any influences or weird energies. All you need are the following:

1 pink candle (it can be any size, I use chime candles)

A piece of paper

A Pen

After casting your circle, take your paper and write down all of the attributes you are looking for in your soon to be mate and then fold it three times. You CAN add love oil to this, if you want, but its really only for ‘umph’. Light the pink candle and invoke a goddess of love (I personally use Aphrodite, and BOY does she come through super fast! I’ve also used Angus (Irish God). He took a couple of weeks, but I met a wonderful guy through him.) or you can use any goddess/god of your choosing that deals with love. Once invoked offer your list to the goddess/god (meaning, burn it. Please make sure you do this in a safe area, like your kitchen! If you can’t, then put it in a drawer where you will forget about it. The spell takes a little longer, but it’s still very effective). Thank the goddess/god and let the candle burn out.

That’s it! It works anywhere from three days to three weeks (depending on who you ask for help and how far away your potentials are). If for some reason it doesn’t work, perhaps now isn’t the time to be looking for love, and you should really check if you’re in a good point in your life to be in a relationship.

In my opinion (based on my morals and research) there IS a correct way to do love spells, and as long as it isn’t impeding on anyone’s free will, it is perfectly acceptable to do them. Anything that requires you to force someone to love you is not only dangerous it’s wrong. In the end, they aren’t loving YOU, they’re loving whatever the potion is making them see and feel. And that isn’t ANY way to live a life. For you or the other person. So if you’re going to do a love spell, and you find one that says “make the man/woman of your dreams fall in love with you” don’t walk, RUN.

Remember, love is something that should move mountains, make you giggle like an idiot when you see them, and make your day seem brighter and the world better.

*NOTE: Please remember to put ONLY POSITIVE things. I did a list once that had things that I ‘didn’t want’ as well. But the gods gave me everything I had written down (a joke maybe??), and instead I got a stalker (I had written, ‘not clingy’. Oh boy!). So its very important to learn from my dumbness, and NOT put negative things on the paper.