What To Do When The Magic is Gone

Hello my witchlings! It’s been a long LONG time since I last posted. At least several months. I’m sure you’re wondering where I’ve been–and maybe you haven’t because life moves on and months away on the internet is tantamount to years, I know!

I could tell you I’ve been off on a spiritual journey, taking classes on karma and meditation and becoming a 3rd degree Wiccan.

But I wasn’t.

To be honest, a lot of crazy (mostly good, some not as great) things have happened. In my mundane life a book of mine got picked up and published, and I started writing even more books. It was awesome. But what ended up happening was that magic had to take a back seat. And more than that, I woke up one day and realized I felt super disconnected with the flow of the universe and the mysterious. It was just….dormant. Not gone, but asleep. Faraway.

I wasn’t too worried about it at first. All witches have times like that. Days or weeks where they just don’t have the drive or feel the connection. But then those days and weeks turned into a month, and then two and then three…..and I began to worry. Why couldn’t I connect? Why was the ‘spark’ gone? Waking up and being excited to do a mediation or do a magical project? Hell, I even felt incredibly disconnected from celebrating Full Moons and big holidays like Beltane (one of my favorite holidays!).

I felt awful. I still ran a ritual with friends for Litha, but the power, the feeling of connectedness…it just wasn’t there. I was in a forest and I’d lost my way.

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Honestly, I’m still feeling that way. But it’s less. I’m feeling a bit more of the spark coming back. An ember, but at least a hot ember that will hopefully turn into a merry fire again.

So here’s the thing though: You can’t force magic. You can’t force your feelings. And your spiritual practice (no matter what path it is) shouldn’t feel like a chore. It shouldn’t be ‘something you have to do. UGH.” If you’re feeling that way STEP AWAY.

Allow yourself to feel that way. Try not to feel guilty (I say try because I know how hard it is to NOT feeling guilty!). Sometimes you need the break. That’s okay. Just like the seasons, just like the moon, there is waxing and waning. A season for all things. And sometimes that change means spirituality takes a back seat.

Sometimes the mundane life has to (and does) take precedence. I’m not saying your practice and beliefs aren’t as important, but getting bills paid, chasing your dream, making things happen….sometimes that needs to come first. Spirit isn’t going to get mad at you smite you with lightening. They’re not there for that. They’re there to help you.

That’s been a hard lesson for me to learn–especially since it’s been so many months. But I don’t want my beliefs to feel like a chore, and for the past few months they’ve felt that way, and I admit it.

But thankfully I think the cloud is starting to lift, becoming more overcast than thick mist, and I think I’ll soon find my way through the forest.

How about you guys? Do you find yourself ever disconnected with your practice for months at a time? Do you feel guilty? How do you get back into the groove? Or does it just come back in one blinding instant? This witch wants to know!

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Samhain and Sabbat Box



T’was the night before Samhain
and all through the house
The spirits were rising
ready to pounce…

      Samhain. All Souls Day. Dia de los muertos. Halloween. No matter which country you go to, this time of year has always been for the dead. A time to reap and thank the last of the crops and those you’ve stored, and a time to honor the ancestors as the veil drops and their voices are easier to be heard.

        It’s one of my favorite holidays–right up there with Beltane and Yule! There’s something to be said about honoring and remembering the past. About remembering where your blood, talents, and  even habits come from. For a brief time, if you’re lucky enough, you can have a chance to speak or see (in any capacity) a relative you never met but wanted to–or never even knew existed!

This Halloween (2017) falls the day after a New Moon. Some books may tell you not to do anything magical on a new moon as there’s no energy. Some will say you should sacrifice fresh blood. And others say you should just kick back with a martini and do whatever the hell you want because energy is energy and doesn’t need to follow no moon cycle thank-you-very-much!

Personally I find New Moons to be a perfect time for banishing. Banishing old energy, emptying the trash, organizing things and using your besom to sweep up annoying energies trying to collect in the corners of your house. Throw it all out to the void of the moon. This worked perfectly for me since I tend to lean to the Celtic side of tradition and Samhain is the New Year in Celtic days. So starting fresh is perfect! Plus, and I won’t lie, it means one less ritual like thing to do ON Samhain (I’m lazy, what can I say!?). And it’s perfect timing as well because it means I have a fresh slate to use my Sabbat Box order!

Now, if you haven’t heard of it, there’s a wonderful site called Sabbat Box. It’s a box that you can sign up for and they have different plans and prices (I would also like to note, they aren’t paying me for this, I’m writing about it of my own free will!). They’re a small company and so popular that I had to be a waiting list for 2 months before I got in! And I’ve loved EVERY BOX I’VE GOTTEN. I actually ended up using the incense in the box a day early to send up a protection ward on my house. The rest I’ll be using tomorrow when I do my Solitary Samhain Ritual.

I actually really look forward to opening the box because they include a phamplet with lots of info and ideas for the Sabbat of the month AND it smells nice!


And when you open it, it looks like this!


       Now they give you a lot of things, and in it they give you a lot of ideas on how to use the products they give you. If you’re a seasoned witch like me, you kind of have your own ideas. But they included something I never thought I’d see–let alone knew how to use–graveyard dust! Turns out you can use it to either a) call on the ancestors to be present or b)use it for protection. Lord knows this new house I moved into needs protection, I have an active portal in it! (Why am I constantly cursed with flipping portals?! WHY!?)

This package included not only graveyard dust, but Four Thieves Vinegar to put incredibly strong protective boundaries around the house (which I’m going to do, believe you me!), oil to call on your higher self to better hear those spirits and gods, incense, a protection poppet, and two skull candles which I’m going to light at my ancestor alter tomorrow! I’m SO excited!

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     If you’re like me (and maybe you are) you might find yourself ‘alone’ for Samhain. No fun circle to go to, no coven that you’re a part of….and if you’re also like me and super extroverted–it sucks! But rather than roll over in my grave (get it? Get it!? ’cause it’s Halloween? Haha?) I’m determined to use it as a time of self reflection and to take time to really really focus on my intentions and the voices of the ancestors, spirits, gods, or whoever decides to pay me a visit!

I’ll be writing up a follow up of the ritual (and recipes!) and posting it up Wednesday. In the mean time I’ll leave you with a few ideas of what you can do Halloween night if you find yourself alone like me.

For Solitary witches who can freely practice:

-turn a tabletop into an altar for your ancestors by covering it with a black cloth and place their pictures (or pictures of beloved pets that crossed the veil) there. Light a tea light candle in front of each one to welcome them in.

-Do a ritual acknowledge the passing and death of the year

-Give yourself a tarot reading for the year to come

-Cleanse your house and put up new protective boundaries

For Solitary witches who have to hide their practice (If it has a * symbol, it means you can also do this as a witch who doesn’t have to hide):

-Clear a space on a table and put pictures up of your relatives you wish to join you (your family wont think you’re weird I promise!). If you CAN, light a tealight to welcome them.

-Carve a pumpkin*!

-When parents are asleep and if you have tarot cards (or runes, or ogahm), give yourself a reading for the coming year!

Just Breath: Following Intuition


Hello my witchlings and wizardlings (those are totally titles, right? Totally.)! It’s been a while but that’s because my mundane life has been…well…kinda crazy! So crazy in fact that magic and meditation had to take a backseat! And you know what? That’s okay.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years it’s to not beat myself up if I slack off in the magic department. Not because I’m disrespectful to it or don’t cherish it, but because the gods understand. We’re human. Life happens. Sometimes if your house is on fire you gotta leave the shrine to Ganesh behind, you know? They’re not gonna get mad at you for not saving a statue!

Just like they won’t get mad at you for not celebrating every holiday or observe every Full Moon. Breath. It’s okay. Zeus won’t strike you with a lightening bolt.


Okay HE might, but others won’t, I promise!

But the thing I always listen to (or try to) 24/7 is my intuition, and by doing that I live a magical life even if I don’t get to do some of the bigger stuff. Tonight for some reason (but there’s always a reason, right?), my intuition pulled my attention to chakras. Probably because I need cleansing and to balance myself out! Hey I’m a cusp sign, what can I say?




While the path I chose doesn’t often cross over into Hinduism or Buddhism for that matter, I do believe in chakras (not that I don’t believe Hinduism or Buddhism isn’t real! It’s just not a path I pursue in my craft.). But apparently somewhere in me something is out of alignment or blocked. And the moment I realized I need to make a space to meditate and clear my chakras I suddenly felt calm. Centered. Magically grounded and aware in a way I haven’t felt in months!

So while you may feel bad if you missed a major holiday, or aren’t meditating everyday, or not pulling tarot cards every day because life is just gogogooo, that’s okay. Life happens. There are a million little ways you can keep magic in your life during the times that you can’t be that magical. Here are a few ideas for you!

1) Keep your altar (if you can) In a place you can see it so you can at least give it a nod before rushing off.

2) Sage (or use a cleansing mister) your house every once in a while

3) Keep some quartz in a bowl in your living room to keep the energy up

4) Ring a bell to clear the air

5) if you’re making food pause for a moment and put some loving energy into it (even if you’re just warming up frozen pizza for dinner!) so that others can have some love!

6) Follow any gut instincts you have


Tuesday Intent: Hunting and Courage


Last night in a dream I had to face one of the most stressful fears in my life (at the moment). It’s something that’s inevitable in my life and something that causes me a lot of fear. In my dream I literally screamed and raged and did everything I could to not let it happen. And it still did. I woke up with a pounding heart and a pounding heart.

I had decided that I was going to focus on Hunting today for my intent, but the gods had other ideas. I lit my candle and incense and took a deep breath. I cast out my intent for Hunting and the gods quickly butted in and said, “remember courage.” I couldn’t concentrate well until I did! So I amended it and added courage.

You may wonder why on earth I would choose hunting! I certainly don’t kill animals nor enjoy it. But it wasn’t the actual hunting I focused on. I focused on what it takes to hunt. High levels of focus, concentration, being at one with the environment, patience. It takes all these things and more to be a good hunter. You need to know yourself, know your weapon, the animal you wish to hunt.

And of course, courage.

You can’t hunt without courage. So I focused my intent for the day. To have the courage to hunt after my goals, to keep my eyes on it like a hunter on a deer and not let myself get distracted by things around me. To breath. To have the courage to loosen my bow. Or in this case, to focus on my writing and aim for publication despite my fears of how it’ll turn out. To not let the fear of the inevitability in my life distract me. But to also face it. To not shirk from it. Like when an animal realizes your there and stares you dead in the eye.

Do you have the courage to face it and still loosen your bow?

So today I hope you can all have a little of qualities of a Hunt can bring. Will you focus on your goals and not let things distract you from them? To quiet the world around you and focus intently? Will you have the courage to even go for your goal, or face up to your fears so that you can start the hunt to begin? I hope you do! Heck, I hope I do!

Blessed be everyone!


The Creative Witch

Forgive the *counts* Oops. Two weeks of non writing. My bad! Life last week was just one big gogogogogoooo week. In four days I got 6 hours of sleep. So uh. There was that. And then this week was one big whirl-wind of life and some interesting surprises!

I’m an artist by trade, and something that I’m creating that was supposed to be fun and small and unpretentious has suddenly turned into a production. And I’m not even joking about that! My little ‘idea’ was so well received that people with far more skill and technical abilities than myself stepped forward and have sort of semi-taken it over. Where once I would be filming with a camera is now being replaced by a professional. And now there will be a set. A SET. So. Yes.

This is what I get for having very talented art friends in high places. Who’d of thunk it?! But I’m grateful for it! I’m grateful that my idea has spawned ideas for other creatives and inspired them to do art!…..I just hope it doesn’t get much more over blown than it has, because I’m by no means an actor!

So that’s why this week I’ve been busy. But you know what? I should have seen it coming. I realize now that all of the meditating and focusing on creative-ness would have opened the cosmos up to me and poured into it creativity. I’m so thankful for it universe! I hope you never stop! Because all this art and being surrounded by artists is really amazing!

I do believe an offering of thanks is due! I know what I’m going to do tomorrow!

I hope all of you have been given some sort of opening in the universe as well! I hope that any blocks you’ve had are released so that you can make way for new and better things in your life!

Blessed Be!

The Goddess’s Lullaby

I wrote this a few years ago, inspired by a gray day and resting my feet in a creek. I was lucky enough to have brought paper and pen, and I’m pretty sure the little pixies of the woods helped out! I hope you enjoy this poem as much as I had fun writing it! Happy Friday!

If you wish to put the poem on your website, that’s just fine! Just please link it back to here. Thanks so much!


Within me dwells the earth and sky

The knowing winds and mountains high.

Behind my eyes are the stars and moon

My love for all glows back at you.

The veins flow with the rivers and lakes

My hair the pattern tangled branches make.

The heart it makes the ocean tides

and causes mountains to collide.

Within me dwells the dusky sky

The restless winds your lullaby

And gentle ponds your pillow will be

My arms the dark soil that covers thee.

And here and there a star will fall

to paint a picture on your wall

And tell you stories of long ago

When the world was young and

the universe old.

Wednesday Meditation: Communication

Doing these daily intents semi-meditations has been amazing. I’ve noticed a huge leaps and bonds difference in my ability to see/hear messages from spirit guides and higher beings.

After yesterday’s incredible meditation, I was pretty sure I wouldn’t be getting a repeat–especially since I only had five minutes to do the light meditation! One of the themes that is good for practicing today is Communication. So I lit my purple candle, some lavender incense, and got down to business!

My focus was specifically communication when it came to writing and being able to clearly write what I needed, so that when I wrote my book it came out well and I could communicate my imagination clearly and well onto paper. About three seconds after I’d completed the thought the smoke from the incense suddenly shuddered and wavered (in an airless room. No fans, no open window) and the trailing end of it took on a very very decidedly ‘word’ shape. It looked like it was writing in cursive, with loops and everything to denote ‘y’s and ‘p’s and ‘g’s.

I couldn’t read the words, but I read the message: They were going to help me! Talk about clear communication huh!?

I hope today you’re able to find the words you’re looking for–that you’re able to clearly communicate your feelings and thoughts, whether on paper or in conversation! Blessed Be!